Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Fight or Flight

I've been putting off this reunion in the hope that something wonderful would have happened since the last time I was here. But it hasn't. A million-and-one, wonderful things have happened - to other people in other lives - but not in my head and not today. I'm six feet under and still digging. I'm lost and scared of my own shadow. I'm bored of my own head and hearing the same old crap come out of it and roll around in it. It still says the same thing that it said in 2005: "I can't".

How do I change things; when I've given up where does the fight come from?